Learning to Be Okay
After a year later…
Here I am again—still bad at writing good content and still a sucker for writing about my own life. Sounds pathetic, but it’s true. Anyhow, Alhamdulillah, I’m forever grateful for everything.
I’d say I’ve struggled these past four years with myself. To sum it up—I was lost. When things didn’t go the way I wanted, I’d get so disappointed. I kept blaming myself and the people around me. I got easily attached to anyone who showed care. And somewhere in the middle of all that, I lost so many great opportunities.
I was too engrossed in seeking validation and love from others, but somehow, it still wasn’t enough. Because when I went home, I felt empty. Zero.
Deep down, I knew something wasn’t right. I was surrounded by people, yet I felt lonelier than ever. One day, I decided to end that cycle. I needed to find myself again.
Long story short, I am who I am now. I’ve realized you don’t need people who don’t need you. It was tough at first, but everything passes with time. I hold no bad feelings toward anyone. I just choose what’s best for me.
Now, I’m much happier, more grateful than ever, and my heart feels lighter—with no resentment left.
Life is what we choose it to be.
And I choose to be happy.
In my own way.
