Alone but Not Lonely
Hi!
“I like drinking coffee alone and reading alone. I like riding the bus alone and walking home alone. It gives me time to think and set my mind free. I like eating alone and listening to music alone. But when I see a mother with her child, a girl with her lover, or a friend laughing with their best friend, I realize that even though I like being alone, I don’t fancy being lonely. The sky is beautiful, but the people are sad. I just need someone who won’t run away.”
I want my old me. WHY? Because I used to enjoy every second of life with the people I loved. But then I realized that time changes what is meant to be. Life keeps chasing us further and further. If anyone before me turned onto a new lane, why must I stop and go back after them?
Now I understand why I always fall when someone leaves me. I run with them, hoping they will follow me till the end. Such a hopeless hope.
"Ya Allah Ya 'Alim, hanya Engkau yang Maha Mengetahui segala isi hidupku yang telah Engkau tetapkan. Tetapkanlah hatiku dan niatku hanya untukMu Ya Allah. Sesungguhnya hanya padaMu yang mampu ku pinta."
